Fasting - Bee Lan's Experience

Wei & I decided to fast yesterday.

It was a serendipitous experience. Wasn’t planning it but since Wei suggested it, oh well, might as well. All the while, I never really thought fasting was me, since I am underweight and during a recent medical checkup, the doctor even said I must be careful to eat well. Going into the fast, I wasn’t sure what I should be focusing on or praying for. So I asked God to reveal to me as I went on. I started by laying at His feet various concerns and burdens, like my Mother, the E-group, and it became a good time of just relating to God. It wasn’t a Wow! experience as such but throughout the day I was conscious of God and was mindful to offer up prayers and praises as the moment needed and just picking up His word to read in odd moments. It was something I hadn’t done in a long time.

Wei asked me to try to sum up the experience. It's hard to. There were many scattered thoughts in the day. But one thing I should try to pen down is this: It was an easier experience than I expected. I expected to be struggling with hunger through the day that it would be difficult to take. But in the end it wasn't like that, it was pleasant. Hunger pangs came and went. It was ... pleasant. What is God teaching me? I have many worries. I can hold onto the worries and feel their weight (like my worry about fasting) or actually do something and find that God is nice and will help me. I need to learn to surrender to God. I need to learn to lay my worries at His feet and not continue to struggle with them alone. It may be easier than I imagine.